Friday, April 28, 2017

Our, me & Ozzie's Simple Tiny Home!

I got a tiny trailer home delivered and set up on my property! Ozzie was so excited he was running all around, he even went into the car to get his squeekie toy!

We have some deep cleaning to do and some repairs. Because we are having a storm with cold and rain and because I had some plans in town we will get busy on Sunday or Monday.

I know you all wanna see... so its picture day!
 Where I wanted to put it...yup worked,
 Had to use my trusty  Black and Decker Matrix saw!
 She fits here great!
 Okay what's up with the exterior  paint job?
Baby's got back tee hee

Curb side

Not too dirty even the old fiberglass curtains are pretty clean ;)

Appliances!  In my life?
Can you imagine a shower in the bath?

And a potty!

And last but not least - the Big ceiling repair - seems to be dry rot not water damage. 

So this is what you will be hearing about for a while!

Friday, April 14, 2017

I talk about ideas. Alot!

Someone said 'wow you change your mind a lot' well I keep  getting curve balls!

When I bought my land I wasn't really looking for land, so I didn't have much of a plan. Being a landowner is stabilizing to me. I'm still a traveling nomad. I give a lot of myself away when I am traveling because I love people and want to help them be happy and successful. When I need a break I can be so exhausted that I am nearly sick. It takes me about 3 months of doing nothing to recover!

I've been living on a very low income of  $250 a month for nearly 3 years now. I knew that it was possible to finish up that project during 2017.

Then curve ball! When my daughter asked me to come to Virginia for the birth of her second baby I had to say yes and adjust my life. I'm no longer sure if I will complete the bill paying this year or not. It certainly will be close. Knowing that as well as knowing that my Honda is older and with an understanding of the weather on my property, I knew that camping out of the Honda would not be enough protection from the elements. I figured that I needed a loose plan to cover me for two years. Traveling and getting out of debt the first year and saving money for the second year. Then I  could have a more comfortable place, be it an earth handmade house or motorhome or who knows during the third year coming up.  In January I had $1100 saved and had considered either the Playa Dome tent or upgrading my vehicle to a Minivan. My Honda is old though it still is trusty so I opted for the Dome and a cargo basket for the roof of the car. I thought it would allow me to travel and take my home with me and keep my Honda gas mileage. It was a good idea but I don't like the set up and stuff and I didn't feel safe enough to sleep in it. Guess I'm not a tent person!

So I am regrouping, downsizing  (I like living simply and minimally),  and getting my priorities straight. I still have the same goals which are to live without debt and to visit my daughter along with things like staying healthy. I will get rid of anything that doesn't support that or that I haven't touched or used in 6 months to a year. I will save as much money as possible so that when the Honda needs replacing I will be ready. I will have a loose plan for getting out of or avoiding bad weather - that means that I have to pay attention to weather reports (one reason why I upgraded my radio) as I travel. And as I have been feeling uncomfortable lately, i will plan a couple of nights in a hotel as well.

Now my property is great. I  think I would like to be able to come and go from there.  A little comfort and convenience would be great. So I am keeping my eyes open for a travel trailer or something that I can leave there like a cottage or cabin. I'm not too comfortable towing something all over the place. I am comfortable car camping in the Honda so my thoughts lean that way.

Oh and I was taught to think out loud. Something about it being sinful to not be in control of your thinking and parents needing to control their kids...whatever. I do have lots of 💡 ideas and I learned to talk about them.  So you probably hear lots of that. 🙄

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Simply a little headway!

After days of feeling like I was stuck. I decided to move back into the Honda. I will sell off everything that won't fit in it or on the cargo basket and start preparing for the trip to Virginia.

I did go to the St Johns Flea Market on Monday. I took the tent and all. I sold a lot and got a lead on the dome. We will see where that goes.

Its been hard learning to accept that I made an error in judgment. That I didn't 't feel safe enough sleeping in a tent. I couldn't rest and felt anxious all night long. I was scared of snakes and scorpions and rats ... lol oh my! I thought I had been so careful spending money and I basically just wasted  $1100. I made a good well thought out decision that was not right for me. Now I felt like like I needed to do something.  But what?  I used my emergency fund which isn't smart. I couldn't see another option. I have been so tired, so alone and I want some comforts. I was so stuck in my uncomfortable uncertainty.

I am not done traveling. I want a life rather than an existence solving some survival issue. I went dancing with a friend last month and was reminded of how much I love music and dancing and being happy! And sweating lol. Survival mode sucks!

I've also remembered other times and parts of 'routine' that I enjoyed and kept me focused.  Things like traditions or celebrations or even weekly budget time, daily quiet time and stuff like that that has not been part of my camping full-time travel life. An occasional scheduled phone call can bring peace and joy to people... it occurred to me that I would like to try adding some of that stability into my life as I move back into the Honda and as I plan for the trip to Virginia.

I have my work cut out for me as I go through my stuff again. I have added back some  comforts like a good steel framed shower tent and a 2.5 gallon solar shower bag... I feel more normal and happier when I can be clean and have my hair neat.  I am downsizing the kitchen for the summer because I do eat different when I travel a lot and when its warmer. And omgosh I gave up coffee! I want to upgrade my window screens and a shade/awning of some kind. I will give you all some gear reviews as I go along.

Saturday, April 8, 2017

It's Simply my process!

Sometimes when I am going thru big changes, l need to sit still and do mundane stuff like just sleeping and cleaning and cooking and watching the birds and animals. I especially like to sweep or rake during these times, and washing dishes with my hands in hot water feels really good too.

I can get depressed and gain weight during these times, especially if I don't feel that I am capable of taking on the full weight of personal responsibility for myself (and Ozzie) or if I don't have someone else to cook for,  because wasting food doesnt make sense. During these times I examine how I interact with the other people in my life. I can be pretty critical of how I handle everything. I also spend a lot of time going over past interactions and analyze what went well and what didn't. I then work to imagine a change that will result in a different outcome. I also spent some time imagining how I think I look to the world,  like physically too.  When, like now, I am getting close to a big birthday - next year I will be  omgosh 60 which to me is officially old - I also spend time figuring out who I want to be, what I want to look like... I didn't ever imagine myself being 60. When I was young and attending WWCG (church) with my family, I was taught that I would never get older because Christ would return and the world as we knew it would be over. I was taught that I would never get married or have children or get  'old'. 

So here I am a year before my 60th birthday, which is actually at the end of June., considering my lifetime and future and direction. My priorities for this year are to visit my daughter in Virginia and to finish paying off my debts. I am so close to the debt being gone. I've sacrificed hard and lived an unconventional lifestyle as well as living on a very low income of $250 a month. Im tired. I have worked hard. Very hard. It has been difficult getting through all the decisions alone. Encouraging myself when I was so frustrated with not being able to have much of a life. Something changed over the winter months this year.  I now know that I left my property in St Johns AZ too early  and I returned too early in the  'spring' as well.  The weather has been annoying to deal with because I was unprepared for any thing outside my beloved 70 degree sunny day temperatures! 

Over the past couple years I worked hard to learn to trust others enough to make friends again.  Then I left them to see what would happen. I was surprised to find that not only was I not forgotten,  I was still accepted and loved!  I also wondered if my townie friends in St Johns would accept me back after traveling and they have as well.... soooo

I guess I never expected or even imagined this happening in my life.  And then my daughter, who along with my son, lived with their father and a step mother during their teen years. My daughter contacted me and asked if I would come be with her when she has her second baby. changes aye?  And as if that is not enough... a sister found me online and contacted me  - my family disowned me when I moved to my first apartment in 1977 and then at my father's memorial service in 2010 I was informed that I was dead and should never contact any family members again.  Wow that was tough and took some wandering, trail therapy and a couple years to settle in my thoughts. Hearing from her was challenging and yet it has been alright.

So WHY  don't I have a house or a trailer or a plan? .... im on overload. Emotional overload. I need to mentally regroup.  Not make decisions right now and just  simply be!