Simply, Lesa

I got a tiny trailer home delivered and set up on my property! Ozzie was so excited he was running all around, he even went into the car to get his squeekie toy! We have some deep cleaning to do and some repairs. Because we are having a storm with cold and rain and because I had some plans in town we will get busy on Sunday or Monday. I know you all wanna see... so its picture day!  Where I wanted to put it...yup worked,  Had to use my trusty  Black and Decker Matrix saw!  She fits here great!  Okay what's up with the exterior  paint job? Baby's got back tee hee Curb side Not too dirty even the old fiberglass curtains are pretty clean ;) Appliances!  In my life? Can you imagine a shower in the bath? And a potty! And last but not least - the Big ceiling repair - seems to be dry rot not water damage.  So this is what you will be hearing about for a while!

Someone said 'wow you change your mind a lot' well I keep  getting curve balls! When I bought my land I wasn't really looking for land, so I didn't have much of a plan. Being a landowner is stabilizing to me. I'm still a traveling nomad. I give a lot of myself away when I am traveling because I love people and want to help them be happy and successful. When I need a break I can be so exhausted that I am nearly sick. It takes me about 3 months of doing nothing to recover! I've been living on a very low income of  $250 a month for nearly 3 years now. I knew that it was possible to finish up that project during 2017. Then curve ball! When my daughter asked me to come to Virginia for the birth of her second baby I had to say yes and adjust my life. I'm no longer sure if I will complete the bill paying this year or not. It certainly will be close. Knowing that as well as knowing that my Honda is older and with an understanding of the weather on my property,...

After days of feeling like I was stuck. I decided to move back into the Honda. I will sell off everything that won't fit in it or on the cargo basket and start preparing for the trip to Virginia. I did go to the St Johns Flea Market on Monday. I took the tent and all. I sold a lot and got a lead on the dome. We will see where that goes. Its been hard learning to accept that I made an error in judgment. That I didn't 't feel safe enough sleeping in a tent. I couldn't rest and felt anxious all night long. I was scared of snakes and scorpions and rats ... lol oh my! I thought I had been so careful spending money and I basically just wasted  $1100. I made a good well thought out decision that was not right for me. Now I felt like like I needed to do something.  But what?  I used my emergency fund which isn't smart. I couldn't see another option. I have been so tired, so alone and I want some comforts. I was so stuck in my uncomfortable uncertainty. I am not d...

Sometimes when I am going thru big changes, l need to sit still and do mundane stuff like just sleeping and cleaning and cooking and watching the birds and animals. I especially like to sweep or rake during these times, and washing dishes with my hands in hot water feels really good too. I can get depressed and gain weight during these times, especially if I don't feel that I am capable of taking on the full weight of personal responsibility for myself (and Ozzie) or if I don't have someone else to cook for,  because wasting food doesnt make sense. During these times I examine how I interact with the other people in my life. I can be pretty critical of how I handle everything. I also spend a lot of time going over past interactions and analyze what went well and what didn't. I then work to imagine a change that will result in a different outcome. I also spent some time imagining how I think I look to the world,  like physically too.  When, like now, I am getting close t...